You have no idea how much I love you, though at times I do believe you catch glimpses of it. Those are the times of peace that you encounter--it's kind of a peace that blows you away, right? You dont have to work very hard to feel my love--it's always present. If I could give you a little advice, I'd say, Man, I'm so proud of you. I made you very special. I believe you know that, and I love how you live your life always looking for ways to bring love and joy to other people. That's awesome! You are doing so much really great stuff and being used so well, that it's hard to think you'd be better off somewhere else.
Even still, I want to empower you to go after what you desire deep down, and trust that I'm with you. Really dig in and go after your dreams. I'm not going to be a genie in a bottle for you, but I'm with you. Cheering you on.
I love to see you happy and while I want you to know that TRUE happiness is only going to be found by resting in my love & peace, there are great joys to experience in this world so GO FOR IT! But, be patient and don't let your place in the journey ever get you down, or make you feel like there's something wrong with you or your abilities. Step back and see it as a beautiful, valuable story that's being written--it's not about you getting everything you want, or it's not about you being perfect, or amazing, or even great. It's about taking the next step in the direction that you hear me whisper. You HAVE been doing that really well--but I sense discouragement when you focus too much on the FUTURE. The problem with being ambitious is that you continually run the risk of not being present. That's why you have to work extra hard to stay present and see all that I'm giving you today, and all that you have --you truly have all you need for your deepest joy TODAY!
You are tempted to believe that what you have isn't enough--that somehow it's old, or no longer valuable, that it's time for something new to keep you juiced up -- this isnt true. New is exciting, but there's great peace in laying into, or sinking deeper into what you have today--that's where you can best feel my love. Your conceptions of what will be nice to have in the future will never match up with reality. Your quest for new only keeps you on the treadmill of discontent.
I made you a beautiful person though you are still prone to sin and its consequences--this is the area where you need to trust me the most. Trust me that I'm taking care of you and will continue to. You will be tempted to look to other people to take care of you--that's very natural. But trust me--I've got you and I'm not letting go. You have some amazing people in your life who love you very much. You have a choice to love them and let them love you. Don't feel that you have to communicate more of struggle then what is really happening, just to get their compassion. They love you already--be honest, but don't manipulate their love by manufacturing struggle.
TRUST ME. TRUST MY LOVE FOR YOU. DON'T FOCUS ON YOUR STRUGGLE SO MUCH--though it's hard, it does nobody any good! Feeling that your struggle is so difficult will hinder you from true compassion for others that I desire for you.
You are smart, creative, a great problem solver, a lover, a great friend, a deep soul, you inspire people, you bring great joy to others. You are a great success--what more could you want!
